I’m done with my self-portrait, just have to print to tape but have mixed feelings. On one hand, I kindda wish I picked another topic of myself (maybe something fun, possibly humorous?) I just got done making a film about my Dad and I… and still, I couldn’t help but using this same subject for my self-portrait (from a different angle though). If I didn’t tell you here, you would never know it… so maybe I shouldn’t call myself out. Oh well, anyway, I’m just in this particular mode right now- feeding an obsession I have. I’m sure you don’t know what I’m talking about but for the sake of not spoiling it completely; I shall continue to rant without reason. While I made the self-portrait, I felt good about it, like just a little more weight was lifted from my shoulders, but watching it now, I can’t help but get annoyed with hearing my own voice… know what I’m talking about? I very rarely talk about this topic with anyone, so sharing with a whole class is intimidating and makes me worry more than I should and makes me doubt my work ☹
On the other hand, I still want to make more of this type of film about this subject. Haha. Clearly, it is a love/hate relationship. I love this kind of film (the diary film) because I think it’s important to stay in touch with our feelings, understanding that they may change over time. I’m also interested in documenting that process, and I’m sure I will continue to do so throughout my life.
Peace out
2 comments:
i hate the sound of my voice recorded too... i sound like, weird. Reminds me of a simpsons episode where homer tries to leave marge a message on a phone, and tries to impersonate her, and shes like "i dont sound like that", and homer says "oh marge, everyone says that when they here theirselves recorded." I know you were speaking much more metaphorically, but i can def. relate.
me too. every time i hear my diary film it feels like im hearing my voice from a differnt time. like im younger somehow. even if its only days ago that it was recorded. it always sounds disconnected in some way.
as far as approaching the same topic from a different angle...i think you're doing what you've got to do right now in your artistic and personal evolution. you'll push this idea until you've completed it. do it with no apologies. its your work and you should use it however you want to. once you've done with it, you'll know.
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