I’m done with my self-portrait, just have to print to tape but have mixed feelings. On one hand, I kindda wish I picked another topic of myself (maybe something fun, possibly humorous?) I just got done making a film about my Dad and I… and still, I couldn’t help but using this same subject for my self-portrait (from a different angle though). If I didn’t tell you here, you would never know it… so maybe I shouldn’t call myself out. Oh well, anyway, I’m just in this particular mode right now- feeding an obsession I have. I’m sure you don’t know what I’m talking about but for the sake of not spoiling it completely; I shall continue to rant without reason. While I made the self-portrait, I felt good about it, like just a little more weight was lifted from my shoulders, but watching it now, I can’t help but get annoyed with hearing my own voice… know what I’m talking about? I very rarely talk about this topic with anyone, so sharing with a whole class is intimidating and makes me worry more than I should and makes me doubt my work ☹
On the other hand, I still want to make more of this type of film about this subject. Haha. Clearly, it is a love/hate relationship. I love this kind of film (the diary film) because I think it’s important to stay in touch with our feelings, understanding that they may change over time. I’m also interested in documenting that process, and I’m sure I will continue to do so throughout my life.
Peace out